cheesiest post.

do you ever just wish there was a button you could push, and it'd bring you to the future? i do, probably far too many times. probably because i'm a daydreamer, and a control freak, so not knowing what's going to happen kind of freaks me out. it freaks me out, but is also so thrilling all at the same time. and, even though i want to speed life up; as i am saying that, life is already just flying by, and then i'll wish it would just slow down. it's a never ending cycle, i guess. oh life, look what you do!

this year, grant and my lives will change a whole lot. like, we'll be thrown into 'real adult life'. not that we aren't living adult lives right now, but we always joke saying it's 'REAL adult life'. grant graduates this may, (i still have a year or so left, since i didn't start right away) so right now we're figuring out where we want to settle down. we're currently in minnesota, but come back a lot to wisconsin to see family. my education was kind of put on the back-burner (unfortunately), so i could help take care of my papa. almost two years ago, he was diagnosed with colon cancer, and after that it's been a whirlwind of things coming his way. he's losing his memory, so he can't go to doctor appointments alone. he had a stroke when i was two, which has effected his short term memory already. my mom can't miss too much work, by taking him to the numerous doctor appointments, so i sacrificed for him. i decided to put him before myself, and help as much as i could. i commute the numerous hours between minnesota and wisconsin, so i can be there to help out with him, and go to his doctor visits. it's a lot of work, but i'm just grateful that he's here and getting healthier. we've done a lot of thinking, and have decided to settle down in wisconsin. we couldn't even fathom to raise our future babies, so far from their grandparents. so, this year is a lot of change. instead of living in quote 'college life', where we live in college type apartments, we'll be moving into our first 'real' place together. we have lived together in a couple different apartments, but we never really considered them 'home'. they were just there to get us through that school year, if that makes any sense. g has a couple of jobs that he's crossing his fingers, and hoping that he could score. i'm so happy to see grant excited about the future, and that he'll be doing something that he really enjoys. we have a lot up our sleeves, and i'm ready to burst at the seams! 2013 is going to be a great year, and i know it. it's hard to just relax and sit back, and just let it all happen. i am a list maker, and like to have things all planned. this time, i can't plan anything. scary, but so exciting.

i'm just grateful for grant. the love and admiration i have for him is just so astonishing. i wish more people could meet him, so they'd really understand what i mean. his heart is so full of love. he's always wanting to do something for someone, and is always making sure i'm okay. always surprising me with something. i never knew how i got so lucky. sometimes i sit back and take my life in, and then i wonder, "how did i get so lucky? how did i deserve all of this? this is all for me?" this life i am living, it may not be perfect, but i love every bit of it. i love that man. i love that he's so hardworking, and never complains. grant, you're a good one.